My dreams brought me here.

I've had lots of Lepidoptera visiting me at night lately. Soft, fuzzy ones with big eyes. Does this mean it's time to spin my chrysalis and exit the larval stage?

A few dreams ago I was visiting a friend. We went up to the roof of her apartment building and were looking around. Right next to her building was a huge blue tower, its apex hidden in the clouds. It had deep grooves in its sides and water flowed down and around it--it looked like a huge spiral water slide carved out of blue ivory. And for some reason I knew it was a temple to OSHO. And this was strange--because I know about OSHO, but I certainly hadn't thought or seen anything about him recently.

When I woke up I thought, "I should probably read some OSHO."

Wisdom comes from the heart, it is not of the intellect. Wisdom comes from the innermost depth of your being, it is not of the head.

Cut your head off, be headless--and follow the being wherever it leads. Even if it leads into danger, go into danger, because that will be the path for you and your growth. Follow it, trust it, and move with it.

Ah yes, I've been thinking far too much. I've been feeling a little neurotic lately; distressed. Worrying about all the things I'm not doing instead of being where I'm at. I've been letting my mind lead me instead of using it as a tool.

Be clear in the mind--don't be success oriented. Success is the greatest failure in the world. So don't try to succeed, otherwise you will be a failure. Think of being blissful. Every moment think of being more and more blissful. Then the whole world will say you are a failure, but you will not be a failure. You have attained.--from Intuition: Knowing Beyond Logic

So easy, right? I just have to follow my bliss. :)

I think I'm in love.

Tomorrow: OSHO.

You can't get more New Age

than this post. 

I pulled a faery card today.  Actually, I threw all of my cards up in the air, and when they landed, I closed my eyes and pushed them in all directions on the floor.  When my hand landed on one that felt right, I opened them.  It was the "Soul Shrinker." How  very apropo. 

I have a confession to make: for years, I've been a negative thinker.  I'm incredibly self-critical to the point of paralysis: sometimes nothing I feel like nothing I do is good enough, so I just don't do anything.  I've been aware of this for a long time, and I've worked on it in the past--some.  But lately it's become apparent that I MUST CHANGE MY PATTERNS OF THINKING.  Now's the time; there is no other.

So I've been using affirmations and other sorts of mental manipulations.  I've been reading Louise L. Hay.  I like her; plus, she looks all angelic in photographs.

I'll share some of her words here--I'm sure she won't mind.

The point of power is in the present moment...
right here and right now in our minds.  It doesn't matter how long we've had negative patterns, an illness, a rotten relationship, lack of finances, or self-hatred.  We can begin to make a change today.  The thoughts we've held and the words we've repeatedly used have created our life and experiences up to this point.  Yet, that is past thinking; we've already done that.  What we're choosing to think and say, today, at this moment, will create tomorrow and the next day and the next week and the next month and the next year, and so on.  The point of power is in the present moment.  This is where we begin to make changes.  What a liberating idea.  We can begin to let the old nonsense go.  Right now.  The smallest beginning will make a difference.    --from Heal Your Body by Louise L. Hay